How did this happen? How am I possibly 25? I have no idea, time has gone by way too fast. Mostly, I don't feel old. In fact when I am asked how old I am, I have to think about it. I guess I just still feel like I'm only 18.
Besides my irrational or slightly rational fear of becoming completely grey, I am glad I'm no longer 18. I have grown more in the last few years in ways I never knew I could. I wouldn't recognize myself even a year ago.
Time has been good to me. I'm developing new talents and discovering a new Rachel. Did you know that I can act? I can and I'm not that bad. I'm still new, but I can cry on a dime and I pick up direction very quickly. Marla says I'm a natural. I'm no where near as good as Beth Anne. But I'm not horrible and that's really cool. Who would have thought? Definitely not me and acting is more fun than I thought it would be. For the 2 or 3 hour class I don't have to be me. I'm somebody anybody else and that's a breath of fresh air.
Gradschool has taught me one thing above all else. Group work is hand-holding and babysitting. I hate group work. I can love a person and when I have to work with them, my opinion completely changes and I can hate them. Work ethic is not equal and everyone is getting burnt out. Senioritious has hit and it's only 3rd quarter. That is not good because we still have 3 more months, 3 more terrible terrible months.
I'm pretty lucky, when it comes to winning tickets on the radio. Did you know that I won Katy Perry tickets? I was caller 14. Crazyyyyyy!!! I wish that luck could move to other parts of my life, but if it's just winning tickets I'm not complaining. Winning is a thrill, it's shocking. It definitely takes a couple minutes or days to really sink in. Pinch me, please? This can't be real life.
Side note, random jump over to the Gilbert Temple. My Dad got VIP passes and I got to tour it before the public and we got to see extra rooms. All I can say is,"WOW!" This temple is the most beautiful place I have ever seen! I have always been impartial to which temple I want to get married in. But now, it HAS to be the Gilbert Temple. I got to see the bridal room. I can see myself there one day. The bridal room wasn't even the most beautiful room in the temple, but man oh man that room was perfect and I want to get ready for my wedding there one day. The Celestial room was breath taking, the chandelier had to be worth a trillion dollars. If I could, I would live in that room. The sparkles, seriously the sparkles, I can't even handle the sparkles. I could stare at them forever! Anyways, I'm in love. It's Heaven on Earth.
Mostly I just want to say that I am truly blessed. I can't imagine being 50, but I hope the next 25 years are better than my first.
XOXO
